some kind of amazing

This 2018, I have a new theme and have new goals. Will save that for the next entry though. For now, it's time for my blog to bid goodbye to 2017. It was amazing... as always. :)

See you on my next blog entry! 

November 2017 | Victoria Harbour, Hong Kong

Shot by my good friend, Margaux. I'm happy to say that this is a genuinely candid shot :)

Hi, you.

I know my recent blog entries always start this way but yeah... it’s been a while. Life got in the way, my prioritization skills needs some work yadda yadda yadda. Even I get tired of my excuses lol 😂

ANYWAY, I’m here! And hopefully I keep this up. I just actually downloaded a habit tracker app so I can further push myself to stop procrastinating and stop wasting time doing mindless things. My 2017 theme is #mindful2017 and even if there is only a month and a half left of the year, I should still try living that theme out, yeah? 

I know I’m blabbing. I just miss blogging like this — talking about random, not so related, unintentionally constructed thoughts. This reminds me of why blogging is so therapeutic. Siiigh.

What’s up with my life lately? (I know! There is no flow in this blog entry lol) I feel renewed (thus, the title), rejuvenated and refreshed. It was the ASEAN holiday last Monday - Wednesday then a few days before that, I flew to Hong Kong to spend time with my college friends. Leaving the country and not going to work for a few days were just what I needed! And I'm thankful and grateful to have been given the opportunity and time to experience those. Also, during the short break, I was able to clean my closet, edit my vision board and reprioritize! I also started listening to audio books and podcasts again mostly on Law of Attraction and Positive Thinking. These audiobooks boosted my motivation level by 1000% no kidding!! It feels amazing! I feel amazing!

I do have blog topics in mind which I should totally work on the soonest, hopefully before December rolls around. Kpop, HK, book reviews, etc. Speaking of Kpop (duh?), Golden Disc Awards in Manila on Jan?? Like whaaat! GOT7 and Wanna One on the same day please! There are also only 36 days before Christmas. Ain't it wonderful? So many grand things to look forward to! Always excited to be living such an abundant life!✨💖

I’ll be cutting this short. Time to work on other blog entries and my passion project! I hope you're having a grand time as well. Thank you. I love you! :)

I've been MIA in this blog for the past month and a half and I'm proud to announce the reason behind it -- I'VE BEEN SO BUSY LIVING MY LIFE!!! YAY! But... I really love blogging though (been doing this for 12 years now omg) so finding time to blog regularly again should be a priority. :)

Anyway, what's been exactly going on in my life lately? What have been keeping me busy? Well... 

+ I celebrated my 25th birthday last September 20

+ I've been enjoying work and had a recent (fun!) trip to Baguio because of it

+ I started my passion project and been feeling so great just because I'm /finally/ working on one of my passion/something I love

+ I am still your Kpop fangirl! GOT7 comeback, Wanna One fan meeting in Manila and other upcoming comebacks and shows (Stray Kids!) have been feeding my fangirl heart well

+ And yes! I saw Wanna One (WOOJIN :(() live just last October 13!! I am still having that post-fan meeting nostalgic feeling so my fan meeting experience would be documented on my next blog entries hehe.

I'm pretty sure a lot of other things happened but these are the ones on top of my head. Life has always been amazing and magical and I feel so grateful to be living my life -- THIS IS THE LIFE I AM MEANT FOR AND... I AM HAPPY. I AM AT PEACE WITH IT.

I know I need to improve on things (e.g. time management/prioritization, more frequent visualization and reflection sessions, etc.) BUT I don't know, I'm feeling so happy, lively, amazing, grateful... just BLESSED! :) 

I have to end this blog entry now since I want to sleep early lol. But yes, I have around 5 topics I want to blog about so I'll be dropping by here again soon. Good night, beautiful :)

P.S. Title from GOT7's newest song, YOU ARE. Please support them! They deserve all the love in the universe! :)

The past few weeks involved a lot of changes in my life so I apologize for the lack of updates. Actually, my most recent update (Produce 101) took me more than a week to write because I was caught up with a lot things! Then again, in the midst of all these changes, amazing things just keep on popping and showing up... as expected. :) LIFE IS SO GOOD, MAN! :)

• Support system - I always find change overwhelming but with all the support and love I am receiving from my family and friends... I always always always get by. I get tired and I feel exhausted but knowing that I always have something, someone I can come home to... what is there to fear, really?
• New work, new environment, new people, new experiences - So far, so good. It's been almost a month since I started on my new job and I've already done quite a lot of things e.g. presented a lot of times, met my teammates, attended/prepared events... and I'm happy. :) I must say the adjustment period here is easy and I'm getting more comfortable on my new role and environment as the days go by!
• JJ Project comeback - The long-awaited JJP comeback! After 5 freaking years, mannn! The promotions ended yesterday *ugly crying face* which is such a pity because VERSE 2 album is GOLD. The title song, Tomorrow Today, is relatable as well... especially to people my age who have been experiencing quarter life crisis with every decision we (try to) make. And yes, I bought both versions of the album (Thanks, Jj!) as promised LOL #trash. Then again, since JJP promotions has successfully ended, that also means that GOT7 comeback is S O O N. I still want the boys to rest more though so as a good IGOT7/Ahgase, I'll patiently wait. :)
• Wanna One debut - Wanna One's debut has exceeded expectations and I'm really happy for them! I thought I'd like Energetic better but I find myself listening to Burn It Up more often because it makes me feel hyped up??? LOL. Well, fine, partly because Burn It Up's choreo is LIT and Woojin had his time to shine there lol. Anyway, I bought both versions of the album plus some PD101 official merch too (Thanks, Kwik!). I'm spending way too much money for these Kpop boys but I can't seem to regret it lalala~ 

• Good food - Because of the past work week,  I've been living the #buffetlife at Acacia Hotel and Aiyanar Beach Resort. I also couldn't count the number times I've eaten out and ate various chicken meals (my fave!), pizza, Japanese food, Filipino food, etc.  I'm grateful because I have the chance and I can afford to eat to my heart's content!
• Business ideas - Extremely grateful as well for these random ideas that keep popping up in my head! It also helps that I always have someone I can bounce off the ideas to. Excited for the amazing days ahead... cheers to the execution of these ideas! :D
• Driving again - After more than 2 years of living in fear and not wanting to drive... I finally drove again a couple of weeks ago. My family kept on accompanying me as well! I'm proud to say that the instructors told me that I do know how to drive and I haven't forgotten my past lessons... I just need to practice more and be more confident!
• Upcoming travels -  I have 2 upcoming travels before the year ends - one with my friends and one with my family! I will talk about this more when everything's set already~ The planning is already exciting... what more for the actual traveling, right?  
• Having enough time to pursue my personal goals - Work schedule is crazy because of the travel time but I believe I'm slowly working on my time management skills and I get to allot more time for my personal goals now! I work on my personal goals in the morning (before work) and after work during weekdays and most of my time during weekends. I actually created more progress now vs those months where I literally had more free time. It's all in the mind, after all! I believe I have more than enough time... always! :)
• New music - Mostly coming from PD101 trainees! Some Kpop songs I've been loving right now: NU'EST W's If You, MXM's Good Day, Yongguk&Shihyun's the.the.the. and DAY6' Hi Hello!
• Skin care progress - I've been struggling with skin care problems recently... and it's so difficult? I think this is my worst skin care struggle yet!!! :( BUUUUT! I think I found the answer!! I will blog about it if this new routine I came up with is a success ok!! :D *fingers crossed*

Such a crazy month it has been but I feel fulfilled, happy, lucky, grateful and blessed! I'm indeed living asomekindofamazing life, yoooo! :D Only amazing days ahead as well... hello co-Virgo people, it's our time to shine! :) Plus, September birthday month and -ber months in general?? I can't wait for the Christmas songs and decorations all over the Philippines!

It's the most wonderful time of the year... I'm singing it and claiming it this early, yaaaas! I LOVE YOU! HAVE A HAPPY MONDAY! :)

Note from The Universe:

You are the right person, this is the right time, you've paid your dues, you're thinking the right thoughts, you're doing the right things, and this very moment, you are exactly where you're supposed to be... poised for the happiest time of your life.

Dang, Leana ! 

The Universe

It's finally time to write about the rollercoaster ride of emotions that is Produce 101 Season 2. It's been almost 2 months since the show has ended but I still find myself regularly searching for updates on the trainees, following their IG accounts and lurking on the Broduce 101 subreddit page. That's how this show has affected my entire... existence lol! I never intended to watch the show, much more stan/support around 100 more boys... but look where I am now. I have 100% no regrets, though. :)

I never watched the first season of Produce 101 but I do have an idea on what the reality show is about. In a nutshell, 101 idol trainees all having the same dream of wanting to debut would compete for the top 11 spots. The top 11 trainees would debut as a girl group (Season 1) or as a boy group (Season 2). The top 11 would be determined by the votes of the national producers. As opposed to Season 1, Season 2 was not open for international voting so the national producers were the South Korean citizens. This gave the debuting boy group the automatic title of being the "nation's boy group." The group has to disband by the end of 2018, though. :( People must be crazy to watch a show where you're sure you'll get your heart broken (not once, not twice... but a thousand times!). However, I can't seem to regret watching it because the show motivated and inspired me to continue on achieving my dreams, goals and passion~

HOW? Let me count the ways!

!!! Disclaimer: Might contain spoilers !!!

1. The trainees in the show came from different backgrounds.


There was a 30 year old trainee and a 15 year old trainee... which shows how you are never too young or too old to reach for your goals. There were  trainees from different countries as well, such as Japan and China, who left their families and the comforts of their home at such a young age to pursue their dreams of becoming an idol.

2. Some of the trainees in the show experienced struggle or hardships that pushed them to join Produce 101 Season 2.



You'd see trainees who debuted already but decided to join the show because it was their last chance. You'd see trainees who have been training for more than 5 years already. You'd see trainees who were about to debut but life happened and that plan went back to the drawing board. Their joining Produce 101 was not  just out of pure determination... there was also a hint of desperation. And this is not bad at all. It showed their persistence to push through despite it all. It's such an inspiring thought especially when I feel like I'm struggling and just want to give up and be a bum.

3. The trainees' reactions to their co-trainees' performances comprise some of my most favorite moments from the show.


I love how the trainees did not hide their awe or pride when their co-trainees perform. They would even compliment their co-trainees for such a good performance and would cheer for each other to their hearts' content. Watching the performances wouldn't be complete for me if not for the trainees' reactions clips (even if they kept on replaying some parts of the performance lol)! This also showed how even though Produce 101 was a competition, the trainees would give credit when it was due. Such nice and polite kids!!

4.  Speaking of performances... the stages were so good you'd feel like it was done by a legit idol group.



5. In their behind the scenes clips, you'll see they are just normal people all pursuing the same dream.
I wish MNET released more dorm clips or more videos of that trainees bonding and having fun. Based on the participants' interviews, they said that they would often go to each other's dorm rooms to "play", prank each other, eat together, etc. They would also hang out or go to school when there was no filming schedule. These scenarios illustrate how these trainees are just normal people, they just seem extraordinary because of the amount of effort they give in every practice and performance.. And that's inspiring!

6. Again, the effort they put on their performances is NO JOKE! This needs further emphasis and deserves a separate number.

Throughout the show, a number of trainees got sick and injured because of tiredness, fatigue, etc. due to the overexertion of their bodies when they practice for their stages. It's a pity that MNET didn't allocate a segment for this as this would have showed how persistent and diligent the trainees were to be able to show an AMAZING stage!

7. The trainees' creativity to get themselves screen time will always amuse me.



Screen time is one of the most important things in Produce 101. Wait, let me correct that... GOOD screen time is one of the most important things in Produce 101 (cause screw MNET's evil editing!). If a trainee wouldn't get enough screen time, how would people know him? How would they vote for him? How could they see his charms?? Because of this, a lot of trainees came up with various ways on how to get that highly coveted screen time! Done intentionally or not, there's no doubt that to be able to do these antics and "extra-ness", confidence, creativity and wittiness are must-haves!

8. They're humble. They always acknowledge their mentors and co-trainees who've helped them.

With the countless times I've watched the show (TRIVIA: I watched the 1st episode more than 5 times already!), I haven't seen an arrogant trainee. Each trainee in the show would willingly accept criticism and would seek for other trainees' help when he was having a hard time. At the same time, the more senior trainees would gladly help and encourage their co-trainees. Moments like those would always leave a warm feeling in my heart.

9. They developed such strong-willed hearts at such young ages.



Imagine being young and not being with your family as you pursue your dream. Imagine being openly criticized by the public at such a young age. Imagine not getting enough sleep just to practice for more than 12 hours a day. All the trainees had to undergo these struggles and sacrifices when they joined Produce 101, yet even after the show, they were/are still working towards debuting. I also have to say that I also admire not only the burning passion and grit these trainees have but also how they already know what they want and how they're working more than 100% to achieve that. (relatable cause quarter life crisis for me lol)

10. They have superb time management skills.



When the trainees were not filming Produce 101 episodes, some of them attended their classes and continued studying. The only free time they got and they allotted it for studying... how inspiring is that? Some even used their free time to practice more! If I were in their place, I could picture myself savoring the rare downtime by lazing around and sleeping all day "because I deserved it." I believe this also has something to do with how they already knew what they wanted so prioritizing their tasks and responsibilities would come naturally... something I wish I have at the still-young age of 24 years old.


11. THE BROMANCE!


Last but definitely not the least -- what I love most about the show is the BROMANCE! Less drama, more love. As you watch the show and learn more about it, you can see the trainees' genuine friendship. From how they reacted to each others' performances, how they complimented their co-trainees, how they helped each other during practices, how they cheered on each other, how they cried during elimination rounds, how they met up and went out even after the show has ended, how they mentioned one another during interviews, how they followed and interacted with each other in SNS (Instagram!) -- the list goes on. Produce 101 was a competition and sabotaging or bad-mouthing each other would've been normal. BUT after around 6 months of living together, the trainees developed a genuine kind of friendship that would make the viewer want to make them debut all together because you want them to be together... ALWAYS. (*cue Always music*)

And yes! Wanna One, the formed boy group from Produce 101 Season 2, just debuted last Monday! Almost 300k physical album sales and all kill in real time charts? ROOKIE LEGENDS ONLY! A lot of the eliminated trainees are debuting or having comebacks as well. I still want all the trainees to debut together though...like one big group a la NCT. LOL. Then again, I'm just happy that I still get updates from a lot of the participants via Instagram and Twitter!

I hope this blog made you see how inspiring and motivating Produce 101 is. Oh, and if you haven't watched the show yet (you're missing half of your life mannn!), I hope this convinced you to start watching it now. IT'S NOT TOO LATE!

P.S. My biases in Produce 101 are Ahn Hyeongseob of Yuehua Entertainment and Park Woojin of Brand New Music. JINSEOB FTW!

Candid photos from a work task last July 12, taken by my colleague 

It's been a while since I last blogged about the recent happenings in my life. Then again, my life has been quite simple. I work. I prepare (for work). I fangirl (a lot). I read. I spend time with my loved ones. I pray. I visualize. I affirm. I sleep. I eat (a lot as well). Repeat. 

Life has been and is always good. I'm grateful. I'm happy. :)

I guess that's all for this week? It may seem pretty uneventful but at the end of the day, it's all about your perspective... how you see beauty in the smallest and most mundane things. :) Have a lovely evening, you! Remember: LIFE IS ALWAYS GOOD! ✨

A lot of things have been going on in my life lately. Changes that I brought upon myself are just around the corner. I won't go into specifics just yet but... there's no turning back now. Here we go!